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SHYJIVEISM  SEaQUAL DIVE-IN Silence of the Dolphin IN DEPTH ECHOS 03/01/2004 - 04/01/2004 04/01/2004 - 05/01/2004 05/01/2004 - 06/01/2004 06/01/2004 - 07/01/2004 07/01/2004 - 08/01/2004 08/01/2004 - 09/01/2004 09/01/2004 - 10/01/2004 10/01/2004 - 11/01/2004 11/01/2004 - 12/01/2004 12/01/2004 - 01/01/2005 01/01/2005 - 02/01/2005 02/01/2005 - 03/01/2005 03/01/2005 - 04/01/2005 04/01/2005 - 05/01/2005 05/01/2005 - 06/01/2005 06/01/2005 - 07/01/2005 07/01/2005 - 08/01/2005 08/01/2005 - 09/01/2005 09/01/2005 - 10/01/2005 11/01/2005 - 12/01/2005 12/01/2005 - 01/01/2006 01/01/2006 - 02/01/2006 02/01/2006 - 03/01/2006 03/01/2006 - 04/01/2006 04/01/2006 - 05/01/2006 05/01/2006 - 06/01/2006 06/01/2006 - 07/01/2006 07/01/2006 - 08/01/2006 08/01/2006 - 09/01/2006 10/01/2006 - 11/01/2006 11/01/2006 - 12/01/2006 05/01/2008 - 06/01/2008 08/01/2008 - 09/01/2008 |
...still waiting...for everyone to arrive... 
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 5:31 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 ...and mum did the rest of the dishes!We do not know when the guests are coming..They departed from Melacca after Zohor. Yeah, yeah...its tiring...rite after i come back from work, i put down my bag and fold the clothes! I prepare the dish n a dessert then meet jimah for abt an hour...Too bad she cant join me. Guess she's not feeling well! [ Allahumma syafakillah] went back home,with empty stomach still...i lay the table..then continue with the work in the kitchen.Abt 4.30everythg was done. After my asar prayer, here i am-blogging and waiting!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 5:28 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 ...and i also prepare this fruit cocktail with jelly!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 5:16 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 ...b4 meetg Naz to visit aisha's mum at cgh, i manage to fry Fried noodle!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 5:14 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
- Ya Allah jadikanlah aku digolongan orang2 yg sedikit- Kerana yg sedikit ini yang sedar akan tanggungjawabnya pada Ummah. Kerana yg sedikit ini lah yang meneruskan perjuangan Nabi Muhammad Sallaahu 'alayhi wasallam. Kerana yg sedikit ini lah yg mengimpikan utk bersama para salafus saalihiin, para anbiyaa' dan mursaliin di syurga nanti. Biar diri disisih kerana menjalankan suruhanMu, biar hati ini sunyi dari manusia kerana mendambakan rinduMu. Bantulah diriku, ya Allah, melalui jalan ini. Kurniakan ku teman seperjuangan utk sama2 meniti sabiil ini..amin.. -the remorseful me-
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:36 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Problems keep coming in since school reopen. . Controversial Aidah- my movements being scrutinized by a shameless green bitch. It was a big issue in the teachers' room! . An Accusation- the victim! . The Condemnation- the victim! . The Complaint- I hold responsible bcoz its my form class eventhough I was not aware abt the incident. Mitchelle fainted. Lucky I took the blame, if not i wonder what will happen to her... Well I should be grateful. Due to all this, i feel closer to Allah and able to get to know myself better. Thks to Jimah for lendg me yr ears.*hugs* The Iman was'nt strong enough when it was just too much for me to take *sobs* Breaking down/bursting every now and then...But Alhamdulillah with the help of Allah, I manage to go through it. He also granted me friends who's very supportive and have a gd pair of listening ears.Not forgetting my Ibu & Abah :) tsabbit qalbi 'ala dinil Islam = tetapkanlah hatiku pada agama Islam Well, there are other IMPORTANT STUFF for me to think about. -how is my afterlife? -where would i be? Hell or Heaven?ect At times, i do feel life is so unfair. But I believe there's a blessing and the cause of the problem must be from my weaknesses!Or its just a test from Allah. Its just a matter of being patient... Coming up events: -National Day Party~ I'm the Master Of Ceremony... -Teachers Day @ Neptune/ Dress Code: Theme~ Shanghai Nite!! Ya Allah...What to wear? -My 22nd Birthday!! -K2 Graduation Concert @Kallang Theater/ Dress Code: Theme~Land of Make Believe!!!? ~simply going on with life~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:11 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
~Asmaradana~ Cinta adalah suci lahir dari jiwa menikam sanubari hati dalam lara cinta mistik abadi kekal selamanya musim berganti tapi wajah takkan lupa meniti berlari kemuncak destinasi murni asmaradana...asmaradana... kemuncak cinta asmaradana...asmaradana... cinta(4x) cinta suci tak kenal harta atau rupa dari darjat puteri raja hingga hamba biar api membara jadi penghalangnya biar terbakar demi keagungan cinta bersama berdua kemuncak syurga di dunia asmaradana..asmaradana...kemuncak cinta asmaradana..asmaradana... bridge cinta(4x) asmaradana..asmaradana... kemuncak cinta asmaradana..asmaradana... kemuncak cinta ~the-humming-me~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 8:52 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 10:59 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
First star I see tonight I wish I may, I wish I might Have the wish, I wish tonight..." I still can't get over it...Feeling down and low still...Do I have to feel this way? I'm confused scared and sad... Well...Life Goes On> I went to Zack's b'day party with Naz. He has grown up! The last time i saw him was 4 mths ago.Now he put on weight.Chubbier!I dunno how to describe.But i was shocked to see him!His mum told us that the he celebrated his b'day 3 times this year. 1] in school 2] at home (with mummy/daddy/khayli) 3] by the beach- party with everyone. Wow... :) I was introduced to the family...[i could feel the warmth].Really enjoyed myself there especially their food.Weather was nice too>windy!Too bad i got class to attend, if not i would have stayed and played the games with da children till 5!I really missed the both of them... Abt an hour later we make a move. I went to class and jimah went back home.We met again at 7 at my hse. Was supposedly to meet at mrt station but was delayed. I walked home with Yanni. Talked to her under the void deck until i overlooked the time.Jimah already reached my hse!Ops... After prayers, we watched the Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam....- again! While watching we had chips n choc drink.She went back home at 10 just now...Dont worry, U'll be fine, saudaraku!- LOL Before i end, i woke up with 'guilt' this morng. Was suppose to wake him up at 8.30 but i fall asleep at 8 and woke up at 9. I called him rite away and he already woke up!Yup, he was late...Trully soorrryyy.... :) And thks Naz for accompanyg me...*hugs* ~the me who is wishg for contentment~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:17 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Baked cheesecake with mum on saturday..And had fish n chips for dinner..daddy's girl seems to be bz in the kitchen nowadays... :)
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 10:25 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Taken at komala villas at peninsula on the 20th of July, 9.10 pm...This is jimah's set meal...Plain Dosai!Waaahhh...
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 1:28 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
10 years ago...I 1]took my PSLE> Alhamdulillah 2]enjoyed my comradeship with my chidhood friends! 3]watched my very first movie in cinema ~ Dangerous Mind! And the following year I was dangerously affected. Innalillah... 5]had a PC and doing projects were so much easier. 6] discover that gaseous drink will make u feel good after burbg! 5 years ago...I 1]broke an uncountable number of test tubes during science practical from january-november 2]took my O levels> Innalillah... 3]was unbridled with emotions.More downs than ups!Innalillah... 4]started to flound n frenzied over small matters> Astaghfirullah 5]had no idea that i actually practised ESCAPISM!*shrug* did'nt realised until i was told!Ops... innalillah... 3 years ago, I 1] was a job hopper-haha worked with Giordano Bedok & TM,ADMC,Pharmacy,DownTownEast,General Hospital ect well...i wrote lots of resumes n went for many interviews therefore i also wrote lots of resignation letters too. 2] settled down with my temporary full time job at PCF- moulding the nation !!!! & started to like kids...*whew* 3] realised i had more probs to meddle with ie.MY WORK & THE PPLE I'M WORKING WITH! haha! innalillah... next phase of life will be tougher rite? 4] became an A grade pessimist! innalillah... 5] went for my second trip to Mecca to do my UMRAH! And eventually, became a better person... Alhamdulillah... 6] proudly announce, that NO MORE jammings for me-official!*sobs* 7] sold my black acoustic guitar for $20 at Cash Converters,2 August 2001. Special Thanks to WS for helping me to carry [first time malu nak bawa guitar sendiri! With my 60 inch tudung camner nak bawa???] and sell it of. "wei..its gone n got $20 only. Heart pain or not?" Well... what to do?! A year ago, I 1] was 21...got a dolphin soft toy and necklace with a pendant shape of key from perlini silver from abg yus & linda...bedsheet from mum & dad...a dolphin keychain from sis...a black blouse from Mom Z & Erny...A tudung/ bouquet of flowers and lots more from my student... 2] get to know a scholar name, Shahili on mar,1am. Friendship bloomed but soon died out...and rekindled!!! :) he was at Egypt at that time doing his final year. 3] applied broadband!At last...hassle free to internet access!!! Alhamdulillah... :) 4] set up a tuition class at my house with Jimah...and learnt lots of things. 5] went for another makeover 6] received a greeting card from egypt! yeah yeah... its a big deal back then... 7] went to Kingston n Jordon's hse for the Xmas celebration with Jimah...I still remember the promised! 8] received a poem from -the so poetry jimah- with picture of us sitting on the pink sports car... thank u soooo much... Today...I 1] went shopping again..managed to grab things from U2/esprit/watson with ain...well just got my bonus...once in a while need to pamper myself...I nd a break...want to clear my mind... 2] am coping well with my sorrows and insyallah always will. 3] had lunch with Ain n Shahidah at Mc Donalds but cant finished my food...no appetite. There, we were talking abt our ex classmates! Had a good laugh... 4] was panick stricken when my Shawn fell at playground just now but i'm acting real cool...Really had to calm down or else the rest of 26 children would make the c2ation be more chaotic! poor shawn...with a bruised on his cheek... 5] teach the children number 5 in school....hehehhe Tomorrow...I shall 1] be more careful with my steps in school. 2] be prompt. 3] be able to finish up my lesson plan n timetable. 4] be able to hold back my tears. 5] be home early ~the simply me~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 12:20 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Sekadar dipandang usah dipuja Kau pasti tak percaya Kasih ku bukan,Untuk mu, sayang Tiada ku sangka kau sungguh kejam Kau rampas segalanya yang kau dendam Namun takkan bahgia kehidupan mu Bila bunyi bersatu Kau milik ku Korus: Misha : Pulangkan cinta hati ku Ezad : Oh hentikan lah menghantui ku Misha : Pulangkan oh pulangkan lah pada ku Ezad: Ku pulangkan kesan hidup mu Misha: Yang dikau musnah tanpa relaku Ezad : Bebaskanlah maafkan daku, oh kasih Tiada kemaafan di sini Kau ragut degupan hati ku ini Akan ku jejakimu, kemana jua Hingga akhir masa, sayang..... Just watched this malay movie> Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam...I like the song! Its not that scary but kinda sad...well i'm already sad, so what if the ghost appear all of a sudden...got no feel already! So i should say,the people at my school is scarier than this movie... *sobzzz* ~simply untouch~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 10:59 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Recently i've been busy in the kitchen...cooking n baking basically...Now presenting my sweet n sour fish! But kinda dull coz didnt deco with the presley leaves n tomatoes...last minute...i feel like eatg fish...haha! But everyone seems to enjoy the dish... *smile*
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:17 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
So overall this is how the kuih looks like....Okie time to eat! Penat seh...
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:55 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Then scoop 2 spoonful and put in the small container and again put the gula melaka + santan ontop of it!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:51 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 yeah - Mum's kitchen ;) In the process of preparing the kuih jongkong a.k.a terjun tikam! :)) First put 2spoonful of 'gula melaka' n 1 spoon of 'santan' ---> hey dun get the wrong idea...we are not selling ya! having a guest tomorowlah...must be org veteran jugalahkan..hehehe
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:42 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Heard of kuih jongkong b4?Bet u did rite.Always available during the fasting month.But today i know its real name! ie kuih terjun tikam!!! "...hah betul bu nama "dia" terjun tikam?.." hahah "iye betul..org dulu panggil kuih ni terjun tikam..." hahhaaa farnie! suka nyeee... till now i'm in dazed - y that name??? hahaha then i realised there's lot of other names that amazed me...such as the city~Nazeemahbad![hey my sis!] or this is much more better filename~Apache tom cat 4.0...omg! [i luff like nobody's business, giggling away non stop] ok back to the stove!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:37 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Nicely arranged after they were baked... :)
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:20 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Before they were baked...
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:14 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Ater mixing all the ingredients, its time to bake!!While waiting[20mins for each tray] i took picts of my 'hardwork' :D hmm smells goooood. Then i do some washing up...Time showed 7.15pm i'm on my way with the 2nd tray!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:09 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 School Holiday!Cooking session on youth day...kinda bored. Lots of thgs to be done dunno which one to start with. I'm bored to death...The clock showed 6pm, hmm "lets bake some choc chip cookies!!!" i put on my tudung, grab my wallet, hp & keys and went to NTUC where i got myself 250g of butter n 10 eggs!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:06 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface I don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure, of walking in your shoes (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you I've become so numb I can't feel you there Become so tired, so much more aware I'm becoming this, all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you Can't you see that you're smothering me? Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control 'Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart, right in front of you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) An' every second I waste is more than I can take And I know I may end up failing too But I know You were just like me With someone disappointed in you I've Become so numb I can't feel you there I'm tired of being what you want me to be (x2) ~simply numb~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 3:03 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 o my gawd>>Somebody's wearing niqab!!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:16 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 me in Naz room...like her room so much coz its blue and white!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:01 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Found this pic when i was clearing my cupboard just now!Was taken 3 days b4 sch hols. With our theme abt FOOD we went to the nearest fast food restaurant n supermarket so that the children can xplore n be exposed to how food is being cook, served, kept ect. Basically thats what the preschoolers are learning. Interesting, isn't it? Guess where am i?Behind the scene at MacDonalds Tampines Mart! I'm leaning against the washing machine and rite behind me is where our Coke..Sprite come from..inside a big packet of plastic and were put inside a carton with pipes connected from the carton to the drink dispenser outside.
How i wish i could gain back my skin colour!!!Hehehe been actively exposed to the sun during the hols lah...Since then been jogging under the void decks when the sun's out!!HAAHHAA Neways i'm in the state of tryg-to-maintain- myself kind of situation hahaha what is that? Well just confused..plus the workloads..wheeewww! Really confused... Well i'm flashing back what faizal told me once...basically abt pple...*sigh* Raud, what u said is also true...i miss u so much...when are u coming back from oz?Rmmber those times when we were young ops younger...Those plannings, tryg to run away from our probs..from our brothers!!!.hahahah *sobz* if u are reading my blog, 2 mths ago, i met yr mum...[its so ironic u live only 2 blocks away but still seldom met!hahahaha ] she said "raudhah cari u[me].u email dia tak?" yesss of course i did but then it was mailed back to me...too bad! Too many problems and here i am keeping my cool...what is there left for me to say...?Actually whats happening? No idea, okies *turned off* Leaving to Allah who will decide for me!*teary eyed* am moving on...temporarily feeling awkward :(( "... tell me y are we so blind to see? that the one we hurt are u and me..." coolio,gangsta's paradise "...Laugh it off,let it go and When you wake up it will seem So yesterday, so yesterday Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay?..." hillary duff,so yesterday "...It don’t do me any good It’s just a waste of time What use is it to you, what’s on my mind? If it ain’t coming out We’re not going anywhere So why can’t I just tell you that I care?..." what’s wrong? With my song? These words keep slipping away... I stutter...I stumble like I’ve got nothing to say... ’Coz I’m feeling nervous Trying to be so perfect ’coz I know you’re worth it.. avril,things i'll never say "...Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies (I don't know what's real and what's not) Always confusing the thoughts is my head So I can't trust myself anymore I'm dying again..." Evanescence,going under ~the emotionally affected me~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 10:08 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
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