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"...breaking the ground with just a dreamboat. Sailing in my head and swimming through my secret oceans of coral blue and red. The smell is incense burning. The touch is silken, yet to be felt..." ~Persona Non Grata said, while looking forward through the lifespan.~


DIVE-IN


Silence of the Dolphin

IN DEPTH ECHOS

02/01/2004 - 03/01/2004
03/01/2004 - 04/01/2004
04/01/2004 - 05/01/2004
05/01/2004 - 06/01/2004
06/01/2004 - 07/01/2004
07/01/2004 - 08/01/2004
08/01/2004 - 09/01/2004
09/01/2004 - 10/01/2004
10/01/2004 - 11/01/2004
11/01/2004 - 12/01/2004
12/01/2004 - 01/01/2005
01/01/2005 - 02/01/2005
02/01/2005 - 03/01/2005
03/01/2005 - 04/01/2005
04/01/2005 - 05/01/2005
05/01/2005 - 06/01/2005
06/01/2005 - 07/01/2005
07/01/2005 - 08/01/2005
08/01/2005 - 09/01/2005
09/01/2005 - 10/01/2005
11/01/2005 - 12/01/2005
12/01/2005 - 01/01/2006
01/01/2006 - 02/01/2006
02/01/2006 - 03/01/2006
03/01/2006 - 04/01/2006
04/01/2006 - 05/01/2006
05/01/2006 - 06/01/2006
06/01/2006 - 07/01/2006
07/01/2006 - 08/01/2006
08/01/2006 - 09/01/2006
10/01/2006 - 11/01/2006
11/01/2006 - 12/01/2006
05/01/2008 - 06/01/2008
08/01/2008 - 09/01/2008

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

ARE YOU HAVING DEPRESSION?

While I was waiting for my turn, I saw this:-

Do you...

-Feel tired or lack energy
-Feel restless, iritable, unable to settledown
-Feel slowed down
-Sleep too much or too little
-Feel sad or empty or blues
-Have a change in appetite, better or worse
-Difficulty in concentrating or making decision
-Feel unable to enjoy
-Feel guilty or put yourself down?


It's confirm I am depression-free! Yeah though I feel tired but I still have the energy to... err... urm... blog! ~___~ I mean, who wont be feeling tired after working or sleeping so hard? Hehehe


Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:14 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.

Sunday, May 29, 2005

The Classic IQ Test

Your Intellectual Type is Precision Processor. This means you're exceptionally good at discovering quick solutions to problems, especially ones that involve math or logic. You're also resourceful and able to think on your feet. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

the Super IQ Test

The way you think about things makes you a Detail Specialist. This means you are a sponge for new information about how things work. You have an innate intelligence that allows you to understand the relationship between objects and physical space in a way that most others cannot understand. In addition, your eye for detail and organized way of thinking allows you to grasp the finer details of any experience. You have a kind of common sense that others lack — and probably don't even have a name for!

How did we determine that your thinking style is that of a Detail Specialist? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you a Detail Specialist. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.

the right jobs for you would allow you to be Personable and Creative

As a Personable type, you are a true generator of original thoughts. You probably like to think that you're equally as good at spinning old ideas as you are at projecting what might be possible in the future.

Your compassionate nature draws people to you. Because you can relate to others, you see yourself as a diplomat of sorts. You prefer to avoid disruption in the workplace if at all possible — especially if you can help others avoid discord.

You are particularly intuitive when it comes to reading some people. And because of your social smarts, people tend to like being around you. That's part of the power you bring to work. But unless you're in the right job, these strengths could be stifled.

WHATEVER...!

~simply me, tested~


Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 1:33 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.

Monday, May 23, 2005

What Will You Do?

The idea just came by while I was chatting with Jannah before getting ready. So I started to sms-ing some numbers randomly from my phonebook...
So, basically these are the things people whom I knew would do when they are down-

...Where the city sleeps and I'm the only one and I walk alone...
Hasu: i'll go for extremely long walks to reflect on things.

...Melt them with chocs and ice-cream...
Shahnaz: ice-cream at Swensons of coz:)
Jannah: I wld buy kitkatz and sit down on my bed and do some listing down...
Rozita: eat eat eat den sleep. after wake up cry den eat eat eat den sleep again.
Jo: Pop yr chocolate n think of all d Gd thing tt has happen 2u think of those less fortunate and go to the mirror n say 3 gd thing.

...Tears will wash them away...
Shima: cry. tatz e best way 2 vent out frustration
Matilda: I would cry or got to place where there's no one where its quiet and sit down or listen to my favourite songs.
Munirah: cry reflect myself.. wat hikmah does Allah wants to show
Junainah: Will cry myself out and remember Allah.
Aniza: Cry, bury yr face on the pillow and scream or punch the pillow. eat ice-cream too...
Jimah: Cry
Shahidah: I will cry to release my stress out.

...Groove with it...
Vit: i will dance
Aisha Jo: self soothin.. listen to music or do somethin tat i enjoy doin to divert my mind from thinkin abt d prob..

...Treat to heal...
Siti: Go shopping. Buy nice things tat i always wanted.
And my pocket will do the crying for me!

...Mix & Match...
Zura: catch a show, listen to Quranic verse...swim or try c get sum sleep.
Raudha:I would go out with friends n just sit down n talk or sleep over it or watch a funny movie.
Janifo: Go to a quiet place to hv a drink. Go for a car ride if it's at night. Eat an ice-cream if u're at home. Take a nap if u can. Listen to upbeat songs it'll help. Take a few deep breaths & count to ten. A long exhale wl be good.
Ramidah: depends on wat makes me feel down.if i'm bored, i'l do adventurous stuff, if i just wanto be alone i'll go to the beach n relax. if i'm havin problems, i'll look for a friend dat will listen to me.
Kak Ani: get out of the house go anywhere eg. shopg or go for a long walk or solat at any mosque.
Mas: Go for a walk and shop. Take a bus ride. Watch sad movie, sit by the beach. All what you need to do is to cry...

...Bury them in the pillow...
Zalinah: I will sleep and reflect the day after.
Aliza:Wen i'm down , i usually either talk 2 my close frens or console myself n go 2 sleep.

...Assure me it's ok...
Mohamed: When i'm down i try 2 talk bt it wif my frn.
Nuraini: Call someone closest & pour my heart out.

...Lets be merry. Get distracted!...
Nadia: Kalau down then keluar ngan frens la.
Wei Sheng: Do what u like best wic will make u happy.
Uzairi: Go out ah. Find a boyfriend. Let him cheer u up.

...With the remaining strength...
Zana: When I'm down I would go to Changi Airport & look at d airplane.. Will put all my sorrow in it and let it fly.. :)
Syafiee:Will put it aside and go chill out with frens. Act like as if u don't have one!
hmm thats a good one but not everyone can do it*** thks for the call.

...With prayers and patience...
Hettie: Normally i wud solat sunat whenever i'm down but if i cant, i'll just do shut myself in my room n read.
Dina: Pray hard. bgn malam and tell him everything.

***To Hid... thanks

and when I am down:
-Reflect. Felt so guilty towards Allah[HIM]. I know I have done something wrong man!
-Get a carbonated drink for eg. coke. Drink and burb. I feel good...
-Switch myself off.I can never talk because i'll cry instead of talking.
-I'll have a long walk along the big houses and step on the dry leaves. The sound very soothing. Hehe...tak susahkan org pe?
-I can't eat even if you bring me to DeliFrance.
-I'll pen down or blog.
-When i'm able to think linear again, I'll turn to HIM.

and when I am controlling my anger:
-it's a good time u'll hire me as a maid! I'll clean the house like no ones' business!
-will then call my humans [at random] sesiapa yg dpt panggilan aku tu nasiblah ye...
-listen to some songs
-getaway from things that had made me crossed.
-write or blog away...
-When I got back my senses, I'll turn to HIM again because HE's always there.

Yeah... its just a test from HIM. Everything is going to be fine. To those who replied, Thanks for sharing/asking, your concern and wishes... I'm just glad to have all of u around.

~simply me, surveying for self-help~


Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 7:03 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Peagent or Pegion?

This is it. A pegion's life: The next downfall.

She's lost...
Many things happened but i don't feel like going on about it. I am already feeling so unmotivated. It is not that I am depressed or anything but just not how I was feeling.

She's annoyed...
Not yet began but situation was stirred up. Thanks to your damn OVER-ACTING. Talk like as if you have just lost your virginity. Relek ah!!! Has anyone there really think about me? It was a total rude-shocked for me man! Yes, I was given the opportunity to talk but unfortunately I can't speak. Too fast too furious and I'm just too lost to think under the weather. Yeah..., you believe that there is a proper way of asking. Riiight! Blurgh, you and yr belief... leave the world and go to hell.

She's controlling...
"... this event would make all of us like enemy." -Not my line, I'm just quoting from their experiences. So now, what control do they want from me? Good enuff they did'nt see the uncontrolled-version of me. I conclude that, BEING THE LOUDEST WOULD BE THE 'WINNER'- just like them. But so sorry i am not going to stand at the same level as them. I'm just glad I did'nt say anything before I really say something wrong. Let just wait and see. HE will control everything!

Enough.

I saw my brudder and his mates when I took dearies out to playground. Hehe I felt so good after meeting another set of people. Yeah... their nature of job could be rough and so much to be done but working as a team with a set of system, i'm sure problem could be solved easily. Afterall, they won't be so 'ngiau', their treshold of sensitivity are not so narrow and won't be so crappy- advantages working in a male environment...

-simply me-


Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 7:06 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.

Monday, May 16, 2005

What makes 4 days?

Last Friday...

1]Read the letters dated since March 2002:(
2]Many thanks to Starhub for the X-box Elite. Change of ownership to Yusmaster.
3]No breakfast/lunch & dinner and I'm not fasting!
4]Suffering from, not one, but, many abrasions.
5]Haha! Banned commercial of Backstreet Boys in Burger King...

Last Saturday...

1]I have to wake up as early as 3am.
2]Reached the capital. Adam's song seems to be everywhere "ha ha ku tak tahu...apa kau dah buat padaku?"
3]What's with alphabet Z?
4]Met Sherina.
5]Abg Ekmal's wedding was pretty grand for a guy side.

Last Sunday...
1]Reached Melaka around 12mn. Happy B'day to U!
2]Sleep soundly till 8am.
3]Sing my way home when Hasu sent me MMS [damn cute!]& SMS by an unknown number.
4]On the run with lessy planny. urgh! 1 msg received:Alive Camp?
5]POST MORTEM: "Walaupun tak jelas, tapi aku terjejas"
Just need that lil' thought of yours and it will be much appreciated. We are just being ourselves.

Today...
Ini bukan kes tak-sakit-cari-penyakit
1]Progress report still not done coz im blogging now.
2]Lets cancel it anyways.
3]New discovery of camoe-yg-cukup-punya-gerek! and there's something about Donut!
4]Sorry! Lets not talk about one's changed perceptions.
5]Shahidah... I agreed- Desaru in June.


Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 9:03 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

I saw you.

I will just have more stuff to work on each day.

Going K.L this weekend for Abang Ikmal's wedg with many thoughts in mind- report books, lesson plan, readings, assignments, deadlines and all is not done! I want to be formatted and reinstalled, now.

The visitor. Argh! We were like giving him names like Bay-lo, Bay-blade, Bay-watch, Bay-sok and the so-the-tak-boleh-angkat-name, ie. Bay-rak! LOL So much to say about being observe and the assesment but can't speak the words.

Had a long and heartening talk with Ash [Zura] when I was on my way home. We used to travel together, going out and all. Its been a long time since we last met. We both know how busy we are with work.
***Dearest Zura, for whatever had happened, I know U will always be able to pull through. I'll be there when u need a shoulder to cry on.***

I'm still confuse anyways. Maybe she misheard the lyric. It is just like the ants are my friends, they're blowing in the wind!

-simply me, taking the back seat-


Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 9:30 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Many Thoughts.

I only thought that I would be back here after the Summer camp. I am still
feeling under the weather.

And my worst pains are words I cannot say.
Out of sheer boredom, Hettie and I was schmoozing about our friends in the photo album. The world is not so big.

#1. Suhada...
Hey, finally...! Miss you lots. Those days being "Charlie's Angel"- was'nt a good experience for us. This time you are married. Small world. If not for Hettie, I would not be able to contact you last night.

#2. I_ _ _ _ _...
Will be out soon. Hettie told me how sad it was when he called her after what had happened. Yes, who would have expected? But it happens. For what we have done, we have to pay the piper. Just being too wet behind the ears and the world is just too small.

#3. Greenview & me...
Hohoho...networking was not working properly at that time, even until now, I don't wish to have it repaired. But it seems ok for all this while. And so, he was in the same school as me! Another small world.

#4. Soutenu sans pere...
Very strong indeed. There is no completion. What's happening? But still they are going through the hassles in the journey called Life. Our journey is the same but, it is just us, walking on a different route at different pace. A crossroad in a small world. She's made her own bed, now let her lie in it. At least the little soul is not the victim of circumstances. Alhamdulillah. A year past.

...#5...#6... ... ... et nos histoires de la vie ont continue

Lectures getting bored and we schmoozed more! In between, brudder called to break the good news and I told him about my not-so-latest-issue. I'm pooped. I'm off for now.

To Dina, all the best for the Deklamasi. U did it right for Mum.
To Abang Yus, Congrats! *smiles*
To Mum, Happy Mothers' Day!
To Myself, Be patient. The weekends will be here before long.

~simply me, shooting the breeze~


Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 2:33 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.

 

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