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-This morning was tiring due to the spick&span and those endless discussions. -Ain came over with Shahana- followed by Kartini. -I am nervous waiting for Monday- driving me mad! -Keeping myself busier- for good reasons. -I'm sick for the last two days- fever & aching all over! -Mariah & Yanni coming tomorrow at noon. -Must call ukhti naz tomorrow morning. ~the-busy-me~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:20 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Lama mana lagi Hendak ku turutkan Kata telunjuk yang menuding kepalaku Sabar apa lagi Hendak ku katakan Hingga aku bernafas bagai dalam lumpur Kasihan... Wajah kita sama Beza pada gaya Itu pilihan masing-masing yang empunya Mungkin pada usia Rasa yang berbeza Yang penting kita saling hormat menghormati Panduan... Kita tak dapat bersama Namun kita juga manusia Kita punya rasa cinta Masing-masing punya harga...oh..oh... Mahu apa lagi Akan aku korbankan Selagi ada hayatku di kandung badan Oh terima kasih Kerana balasan Semoga sejahteralah hidup semua Oh kawan Haha... Watched the lame-malay-movie at Suria, PUTERA cast by Erma Fatimah, Joe Wings [handsome!!!], Vanida Imran and more. This is what we call, cerita takde standard! But I like the song though... Bernafas dalam lumpur by Wings. Therefore, I changed my jukebox's song...haiz.
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 1:14 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
"For those who believe, No explanation is necessary.... For those who don't None will suffice" Stuart Chase "...the secret of getting ahead is getting started. The secret of getting started is breaking your complex, overwhelming tasks into small, manageable tasks and then starting on the first one..." mark twain Almost midnight and I'm not sleeping- nothing new! Duuuh.... Browsing through mom's collection of recipes for Hari Raya. *ouh no...* But now to more urgent matters at hand...my projects, assignments and upcoming lesson plan * yawn * ~the-unsteady-me~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:40 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
your friend...*nods* Einstein wrote the following riddle. He said 98% of the world could not solve it. There are 5 houses in 5 different colors. In each house lives a person with a different nationality. The 5 owners drink a certain type of beverage, smoke a certain brand of cigar, and keep a certain pet. No owners have the same pet, smoke the same brand of cigar, or drink the same beverage. Clues: The Brit lives in the red house. The Swede keeps dogs as pets. The Dane drinks tea. The green house is on the left of the white house. The green house's owner drinks coffee. The person who smokes Pall Mall rears birds. The owner of the yellow house smokes Dunhill. The man living in the center house drinks milk. The Norwegian lives in the first house. The man who smokes Blends lives next to the one who keeps cats. The man who keeps the horses lives next to the man who smokes Dunhill. The owner who smokes Bluemasters drinks beer. The German smokes Prince. The Norwegian lives next to the blue house. The man who smokes Blends has a neighbor who drinks water. Question: Who owns the fish? P/S: There's nothing abt me!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:18 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Just finished reading the 5th book of 2004- with struggles! I what? Read? Woohooo I did'nt know I could read. Was'nt my cup of tea. I hate books but now learning to love it! This book called How To Write by Richard Rhode. It took me sometimes to finish up the book. The challenge is to get from where you are to where you want to be. But, that probably wont be quick or easy. Writing is work, real hard work and its rewards are more personal than anything else, meaning that I have to do it after hours. *Hahas* But if writing is work, learning to write is not necessarily painful. To the contrary writing relieves. Our uniqueness isolates us. However writing is only the one kind of making. Loving, raising children, do the work that buys our groceries are kinds of making as well. But because writing is structured from a common code, it's more durable than the private events that fill our lives. This is just my review after reading the book. Work was fun today. This week's theme is about Zoo Animals. So I was doing lesson on animals and their young. Introducing them to the world of the animal kingdom was really a diversion for today's case. Encounter with some funny and ticklish moments with dearies. Somethings just have to happen... I'll take goat as an example. Its young is call kid. Yeah kid- [its something new to the children] And suddenly... voice from nowhere: "Eh my mummy always say i'm her kid u know!" xuan yu: Wah heng ah my mummy call me boyboy... Ya allah apa ni.... Explanation done, all settled. Lesson continued. Then another qn poped in!!! sweety: Teacher, y babbies cannot walk but baby animals can? what!!!???Die... simply me: Errr... how do u know baby animal can walk? sweety: I saw at television. simply me: ohh that's because their bones are stronger than us and they don't need their mummy to teach them how to walk because they already know! But babies need to drink milk to make their bone strong before they can walk. Then need to teach them how to walk and do other things too. We are different from the animals. *SIGH* Ok now we shall do our work...bla bla bla! Enuff said. I'm tired. Good nite ~simply me,reviewing book and answering qns~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 8:30 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
I learnt something today. Well..it's been inside me for a long time anyway- U know, sometimes Dad would tell me about first impression. The initial stage, which is the hardest but important. Simply said, its the significant. This one came from my bro: "Get your mindset right before you want others to have a positive mindset on you. Don't bother about what others might say but instead let others being bothered with your positive thinking and forthcoming attitude. Let your action do the talking rather than otherwise." -101103-For what I can observe, together with the ongoing journey which I'm travelling through, I totally agree with them. Never show our weaknesses to others- yeah yeah easier said than done. No doubt, honesty is the best policy but ever heard of role-play? May sounds fishy but there's always a part for us to play. *To Hasu, I knew u can explain this. U'll always go.."Life is just like a ...." hahas -hugs-* Going to that/those thoughts again... Well...I mean I'm telling myself not to think, telling others not to think- even worse. Hey... who am I kidding huh... Haizzz. I'm just typing and not making any sense here. I came across something that really baffled me for the longest time. It hasnt been a long time since that has happened though but sometimes, just sometimes, I wish things would go the way I planned it to be. What's the point of planning? It gives u direction to look forward to. Something to aim at- to make ur life a lil' more meaningful compared to just staring blindly and making time pass by slower than P.P lessons today. *sigh* In an email, written by my bro, he said, "Plan for your future with different routes to its destination as you will never know which routes could fail you. Remember this, 'If you fail to plan then you plan to fail.'" Ya Allah..pls help! Whatever it is, lets look back into the Islamic Perspective. Should Redha instead; keep to the basic. God never make mistake. Met Su when I was heading towards the busstop. Sat down and chat for awhile. *smilezzz* Thats all for my day- nothing much as things at work turns out to be much more better than the day before... ALHAMDULILLAH! May Allah will always be with all the Muslims. Ameen. ~simply-me, dad's & bro's influences~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 10:53 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 This is what I managed to do on last Sunday. Pre-spick & span of a bedroom of two. There used to be a big white metal table with a thick glass as the table top. Given away! *Thks to my dear uncle!!!* 
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 12:12 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 On a closer look...
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:54 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Taken during the First Aid course: My partner, Shahida. Tie up the bandage on her...Hahaz Any casualties, can come see me. Will wrap up for you too.
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:51 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Must try to divide and conquer. Too much on one thing is bad enuff. It makes u sick- which I seriously did not quite understand why I am still at it. As what I can see now, I am torn between many. Sometimes I wonder, if I'm living up to fantasy. Met Zaza & fiance on my way home...so nice to see a familiar face around that has not been seen in a while. I wonder how the other guys are doing... I'm comfortable with the life I'm leading now. Sometimes I wonder where life takes us. Good or bad, we end up learning the ways of how it affects us. But I never felt so alive as before. Literally, it opened my eyes to the greater influence of the world beyond me. Suffice to say, it's never really in your power to do anything. Lose some, win some or hit a dead end where we cant go back. LOVE is a matter of choice, not being there at the correct place or time *winks* ~the-wondering-me~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:05 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
I'm feeling weird today- do not ask why. I'm getting tired of almost everything. Any form of distraction would be good but on the other hand, I would love to be alone- at work. Hoping to breathe easier tomorrow. ~simply-living-life~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 10:48 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Something meaningful. Sometimes we wonder, "What did I do to deserve this?" or "Why did God have to do this to me?" Here is a wonderful explanation! A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away. Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, "Absolutely Mom, I love your cake." Here, have some cooking oil," her Mother offers. "Yuck" says her daughter. "How about a couple raw eggs?" "Gross, Mom!" "Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?" "Mom, those are all yucky!" To which the mother replies: "Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake! God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful! God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He can live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart. I hope your day is a "piece of cake!" Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.... Just reached home. Went to the-wet-Geylang just now. The tudung hunt was really-menguji-kesabaran!!! Tonnes of tudungs, but none match! Jimah got herself a nice-artsy-cloth for her room deco. Last minute plan to bake cookies flopped! Supposed to meet a friend but ended up meeting another new friend! After we got the souveniours, we headed home straight.K, time to break fast. C ya!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 6:34 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Had a long day in school for the First Aid thingy. Haiz... Did some hands on and outdoor activities. This programme was conducted by the SCDF staff- Mat CD!!! and two presentors from Bedok Town Secondary School *winks*. Alhamdulillah all went well. Got the chance to put out the fire using extinguisher- heavy! Break my fast with Jimah at her hse. Great time there. Were welcomed with warmth by the family. #To Naz, thk u so muc for the food *burb*# hehehe. Then went over to my place to do the terawih together- funny but we shld be more seriouslah next time, hahaha!!! *big, big smile*. ~simply me, laughing away~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 12:45 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Did the last minute touch-up for my classroom before we move on to the next theme... Thought wanna grab some important stuff before the Sg Idol but my energy level seems to be so low. Never had I imagined the worst could happened! Hehehe. God never make mistake- thats for sure. Hearing the thunder now- continuously...might be raining heavily tonight or maybe not. Big Boss decide. Singapore Idol- Maia's out! I thought it would be Christopher or Daphne!!! So, who will represent Sg to the World Idol??? Tomorrow's First Aid will cover CPR, Fire Fighting and whatever they want to do also I'm not interested.Urgh! Its 9-5, outdoor activities. Damn! Well, like what Jimah told me..."Takpe ilmu tu...." Yelah yelah! -Boring- Shahidah were saying to break our fast at Tepak Sirih. Waaah...sounds great. See first, if we are not tired then we can go there but if the day does'nt turn out that good, too bad! Signing off, ~the-simply-me with a severe headache~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 10:09 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
"in life, God does'nt give you the person you want, instead he gives you the person you need...to love you, hurt you and teach you the real meaning of life" and this, "Allah does'nt makes mistakes. He knows what we don't see in a person..its our responsibility to find the person but up to him to decide...so tawakal." Beautiful...InsyAllah... Syukran ya Ukhti Naz. Jazakillah khair!*hugzzz* Months back, I keep on thinking I'm always a failure in everythg I do. It's proven. Somehow, self confidence regained, not fully but a lil'. That will do for now. Enuff, I really do not want to blog about this 'issue of my life' again. New chapter pweeease?? ~the-simply-me, with unforgetable memories~ *winks with rolling tears*
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:56 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Reached on time but still late. I mean we were delayed at the counter due to miscommunication, confusion ect. Thanks [with double inverted comas] to Mr Peter. Long sleeves t-shirt [Giordano] are back! 2@$26 for grabs. U.P $16 each. With four diff colours- black, white, not-so-nice pink, and ginger- like an olive green. Got myself the white & ginger colour. These tees are good in a sense that, they would be your saviour in the morning if u are late- no need to iron! So far this year, the stock came in thrice- at the right time. Giordano- Simply Jeans. When we were out from the shop, we saw Sylvestor on the big screen... What are we waiting for? Dashed home lah, what else??? *Naz, laju seh!* Great time with Naz today. Did maghrib prayers with her and as usual, there would be some "handing-over" before our prayers! Hehehe ***Naz, terawih bila???*** Catch Sg Idol with her also. Passing remarks and commenting on the idol-to-be-but-supposedly-not. Kewl! Alhamdulillah, everythg went well at school but gotta speed up. The children were okay... but they seems to be more active these days. Will be doing some grabbing up again tomorrow! for now, i gotta go. ~the-simply-me, cheerful today~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 10:46 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Not enuff sleep last night. *yawn* Hey, somebody is going back to Egypt to resit for an exam. The flight was at 7pm just now. All the best and may Allah be with you. Another flashback of memories. We were talking about the same hostel where they used to stay not long ago... :( *pause* I asked abt about the M'sian family who was killed there. [Innalillah wa inna ilaihi rojiun]they knew the family and heard abt the 'problem' since last time. Whew...frightening! And today is.......Pay Day! :) Did some 'surveys' just now... Heheh sempat seh! Meeting some datelines already, but work still not completed... *o-m-g* *yawn* so sleepy. Aching all over *haizs*. Gotta go. ~the-aching-me~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 10:52 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Busy...Did my terawih at home lead by Abah. After that, make the pineapple paste- damn tired man! Read Naz's msg 2 hrs later after it was sent. Quite worried and at the same time I giggled- imagining how's the situation like. At times her expression can be very cute *ahacks*... Here's some pics taken before n during Ibrahim's wedding...and picts during my dearies graduation concert at Kallang Theater. *Pictures courtesy of Nokia3200, Nazeemah, Nuraini & Anita Haron*... Signing off, ~simply me & those pictures~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 10:37 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 At the dressing room while waiting for Mr Mah to arrive. From left: kak fizah, me and kak nita!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 9:59 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 The Concert Co-ordinators- From left: Abirami, Anita, Shahidah, Shaidah Nafisah, Jo and Sulo. Fuyooh...Hard work paid off. At last, its going to end soon!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 9:56 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 With the bride & groom...!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 9:48 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 The Final...touch-up. *Rite!*
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 9:29 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Pintu gerbang pelamin...
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 9:28 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Mubaraq and me... [Aishah's brother]
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 9:26 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Everythg went on well today. Semestral Assessments II for Dearies start tomorrow. Gotta prepare some stuff- very rushing on my part. *Exhausted* Reached home early- Thanks to Abah for fetching me from school. Brought my "workload" home . Die die must complete by tonight if not tomorrow- hard time! Errr...so, what am i doing here???! When one door closes, another open. But often we look so long, so regretful, upon the closed door, that we fail to see, the one that has opened for us. -Alexander- Ok, go! ~simply me, very busy~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 8:10 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
***Will make full use of this time to rest, help MUM and clear up some stuff from my room and blog for a while,hehehe. Yesterday[morning] received a call from U.K. It was Haris. Managed to talk for abt 20mins. It was 5 deg cel. there and whenever I ask him what he's doing, he wld say " dalam sleeping bag ni, berbungkus! Sejuk sgt!" We were basically talking abt the 'surprises' that had happened within the short period of time and don't really want to say this, but, there's more to come. Hahah... Yeah, yeah...He laughed whenever that name was mentioned. Anyways "thanks" for asking...We still do not know what to expect. Wait and see... Pray and hope... All the best for your future- take care ya! --- Ok now... what do I think of... Blogging? Why do I blog? Simply because I'm so used of writing the diary when I was 8. More like a journal thingy that went like this- " Today I...bla...bla..."Ouh... 14 years past and I'm really tied down with work. No time and too tired to write. When I found out abt this blogging thgy I was eager to start it out but do not know how. Furthermore internet access was a hassle at that time. Till recently, ard Feb, Jimah introduced me to this blogging thgy and I find that its cool! Now, I'm kinda addicted. Hehehe...well some says it's hard to maintain- depends on individual. All along when I followed the development of other blogger's world, from what I observed they are more like expressing their feelings, sharing ideas and thoughts, self note abt life and opinion- on all aspect. They [including me lah] even stating abt their whole day event- though sometimes there's nothing much to say!. Free world! In a way, they are doing it 'silently'. They knew how to make full use of it, not abusing. Some would use their 'shanty-blog' for their collection of their creative work of arts like poems/poetry or even abt multimedia stuff. However, some would use their blog for social critics, expressing hatred and so forth. I believe, there's bunch of people there are well-versed in native writing and enhancing their Blog- an indication of future happening! *Haiz* Suddenly coming up with this topic... the thoughts of Abah was asking why do I have to do this blogging thgy keep coming in. To him its just a waste of time...Hmmm time is precious! Hehehe I don't thk he would understand. But who knows sekali dia pun ada blog- abahtahu@blogspot or spiderforever@blogspot or mrspidey@blogspot!!! Muahahah ishk baik aku gi check! ~simply me,'that name'and 'why blog?'~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 8:17 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Which Naruto Character are You? quiz by orangeday.net Sakura pun sakura lah...apa hal ni? Enjoying myself at home. Been sleeping, reading, blogging, blog hopping then sleep again, read again and blog again...hhehehe I'm loving it!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 3:23 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
SHARING AGAIN... ***For some analysors, who claimed that they used to read my blog religiously but not recently. Well, for now- here goes! [BTW, am not a preacher :D] RECAP ON LAST YEAR'S CERAMAH - c.i.n.t.a [went with the sisters, very-the-memorable!] ahacks... macam jiwang je! Susah nak lari dari fitrah yang satu ni... Keinginan untuk cinta-mencintai, rindu merindui- memang sudah menjadi satu fitrah yang telah tercipta seiring dengan penciptaan manusia... Tanya saja pada mana² makhluk bergelar manusia, mesti dia akan ada perasaan untuk mengambil berat dan keinginan untuk diambil berat. Persoalannya? Cinta yang mana yang perlu/harus dikejar? Apabila kita menyebutkan ttg perkataan cinta, apakah erti sebenarnya? Dalam minda insan akan terlintaslah kerinduan diantara pasangan masing². Tetapi sebenarnya cinta ada banyak furu'... cinta kepada ummi/abi- melalui hormat, kasih sayang dan khidmat yg kita berikan. cinta kepada guru- melalui hormat, khidmat dan ilmu... cinta kepada masyarakat dan ummah- melalui doa, khidmat, care and concern... cinta kepada agama- through the practices throughout our lives... cinta kepada Rasul- dengan mengikut sunnahnya cinta kepada Allah- dengan merasakan diri ini adalah hamba [slaves]. Inilah juga yang dinamakan cinta Agung... OK... Mengungkap kata² cinta agung ini adalah sesuatu yang mudah. Ianya sekadar dibibir saja. Yang pasti cinta agung itu sukar untuk meresap jauh ke dalam hati... Hanya sekadar ungkapan kata, angan² kosong yang tak kesampaian KERANA ianya terbukti melalui amalan kita sendiri...Not being a jumud, it's about myself anyways... Buktinya... Bila azan, waktu subuh...kita akan bangun dari tidur dengan berlengah-lengah...sambil berkata "Eh dah Subuh. Cepatnya masa. Baru jer tadi tidur." Merungutlah tu... Tapi cuba pula bila tidur di tengah malam buta, sekali ada org kasi misscall...sepantas kilat kita bangun dan terus mencapai hp untuk tengok siapa yang kasi misscall... sekali tengok nama org yg selalu dihati, terus tersenyum...Astaghfirullah.... :D Part nak berdoa... Bila berdoa... baru je 5-7 minit, dah terasa lama, kaki tangan semua macam lenguh pulak rasanya.. dan dalam hati akan terdetik, "uish dah lama dah doa ni, cukuplah tu..." tapi bila bergantung kat telifon sampai 3-4 jam, boleh terdetik dalam hati... "eh, dah 3 jam lebih aku berbual? tak terasa lak, byk lagi ni nak cakap..." ishk...Astaghfirullah :D Kenapa...Apa pasal...Macam mana benda ni boleh berlaku? Sebab kita hanya merasakan kebesaran pada benda benda lain lebih hebat di dalam hati kita berbanding dengan kebesaran Allah... I mean come to think abt this matter again actually azan yg berkumandang adalah misscall dari Allah untuk remindkan kita supaya kembali mengadapNya... Betapa kasihnya Allah kepada kita yang lemah ini... padahal kita yang selaku hamba, Allah tak perlu diperingatkan dengan azan... sebelum masuk waktu, kita sepatutnya standby dulu untuk datang mengadap Allah. Sama juga macam nak masuk kerja, mana ada guru besar panggil ingatkan kita "Ms Aidah, time for you to start lesson now" Malahan kita dengan sendirinya yang akan datang masuk kerja sebelum pukul 8... Banyak lagi benda yang perlu aku buat... MasyAllah jauh lagi rupanya aku dengan Mu... Niat di hati terlalu banyak tapi selalunya tak kesampaian. Apakan daya...tangan hanya ada dua... niat di hati ingin memeluk dunia, tetapi tidak mampu. Haa... da mulalah nak beralasan tu...Simply Manusia! ya Allah, bagilah aku dan umat ini taufiq untuk mendekatiMu.... ~the-introspecting-me~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:18 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
TEST #3 ~f.r.i.e.n.d.s~ 
Take the What Type of Friend are You? quiz, and visit mutedfaith.com. What??? "Secret motive or something?" hey that's not true! :) Whoa...so I am a good friend huh? *smile*
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 9:58 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
TEST #2 Simply Me- JOCK? 
Take the What High School Stereotype Are You? quiz. Similiar...Ehm...Whatever!
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 9:31 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
TEST #1 Shyjive Hartnett??? OMG! Hahah...Read on!  You are going to marry Josh Hartnett. He is really shy, but don't let that fool you. He is really outgoing and sweet with those he loves and will be loyal to them for the rest of his life. Congrats!! Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (14 choices now!!) brought to you by Quizilla What??? Josh??? OMG!!! :D He's a heart-throb, man!!! *big, big smile* ~the-simply-me-who-is-smiling-again~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 9:14 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
I'm doing great...heheh. I'm still keeping myself busy/handful, doing the same ol' routine. So far so good but I'm having a bad headache lah... Ramadhan now & then... Alhamdulillah, everythg went on smoothly. Did my prayers at Khalid Mosque last night-felt more composed like never before. At school, my children behaved well today. As if they know I'm fasting and exhausted... However, memories haunt back...I'm trying to sort things out. Last Ramadhan was the happiest one when I came think of it just now. Though I went through hassles abt convincing the hardest person in my life, abt someone and eventually through. I felt somethg a miss all of a sudden. I will no longer have what I used to 'get'... So sad *smile* -Let's skip abt the substituiton part- Too soon, I'm 'at sea' and felt overfilled too. When I look into your eyes... Last week I was touched when Javier asked me "Teacher...why u so quiet today....? Yesterday also..." I really do not know what to answer. Simple qn yet difficult. I thought I was cheerful that day. I might not be able to answer or he would not be able to understand. Not only him. Michelle also commented..."Teacher U look sad... problem must solve, right?" she said as she keep on nodding her head and she looked at me! "Hey that's my line!" I said. " Hmmm yes thats rite, actually I'm tired." She continued- "U must rest, cannot do alot of work u know..." I did rest, I took mc on monday u know ;) Well, I should focus more on my Ibadah now. The month that I've been waiting for has arrived. Till then... ~the-so-dumb-hushed-low-silent-me~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 10:05 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
turned in early, close my eyes, hoping to sleep but I can't sleep properly, for the whole night i was like sitting, lying down then sit again. Slept for 2 hrs and awake again... :) yeah it will go away after sometimes! on m.c today... something is obviously wrong. Actually it's just a matter of time. Small matter. Though there was some mental preparation long ago I still can't get over it now. Time needed. What was expected came true so, why troubled? I'll work out more on self control. Truth is very uncomfortable, furore facts and reality bites. Enough is enough... Aristotle once said that happiness depends on ourselves...I got it. Hey I got syllabus planning later. If I'm well then I'll go...really want to go. I don't want to do the planning during fasting month... :)Ramadhan's coming again... ~the-me-who-is-sick-and-tired~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 1:36 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Penaku menari mencoretkan Sebuah puisi kelukaan Gurindam jiwa, cinta dan airmata Di kamar hati ini, masih ada sembunyi Kenangan yang tak mampu ku lemparkan jauh Penaku menari melakarkan Gambar kesayuan masa silam Tinta bersulam biru, warna kerinduan Berkaca jernih ingatan ku Biarpun dikau telah jauh dari pandangan ku Manisnya pertemuan, pahitnya perpisahan Segala kini tidak dapat untukku bahasakan Semua kini kaku, tiada lagu merdu Setiap madah baris kata,bukannya lagi buat mu Kini berteman sepi, kini aku sendiri Suka dan duka dalam meniti gelombang Kembara panjang Jauh melangkah pergi, tidak menoleh lagi Kenangan silam ku, tinggal tertulis kini Dalam sebuah puisi Penaku menari membariskan Puisi sebuah pengalaman Gurindam jiwa cinta dan airmata Di kamar sepi ini, titisan membasahi Dan aku tidak tahu, pada siapakah untuk ku luah rasa ~the-singing-to-the-tune-of-sorrow-me~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 1:19 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Hey just came back from the grad concert...Alhamdulillah...the kids did so well till the audience clap while they were dancing...Parents were saying that they were impressed by our item :D I've been humming to the tune of Melly's song today... *sigh* heard this song on the radio while I was dressing up this morning and it sound so right for me...the funny part is, while I was humming, one of the kid actually heard and ask me " Teacher U like that song is it?" *ops* Then both of us singing together while waiting to perform and while we were in the bus too...Haha. Tak Tahan Lagi - Melly Goeslow Tak tahan lagi Ingin berteduh Berjuta kata ingin ku ucap Selama kau pergi Tak ada lagi Teman dalam sepi ku Pulang dan dekap Wajah yang murung Serpihan rindu Ingin ku sapu Sepiku hilang Saat kau hadir Menepis semua gundah Bisakah engkau menundukkan wajah Cuba berfikir dari sisi aku Pernahkah engkau merasakan rindu Sampai menggigil seperti ku ini Jarak membentang tak kurungkan niat Menanti kekasih setianya aku Ok... I'm beginning to be myself, no choice, though it still linger in my mind. I always thought I could bear with it when the time comes but it's not that easy. The Big Day coming nearer...mid of next month, another torturing month that I wish I would'nt hv to go through... Where can I go? I will be fine though I still cannot find comfort in the truth. Damn! ~simply me, on the track of serenity~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 10:28 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Md Khairuddin: Taken while at Cik Lela's hse for the prayer feast...
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:18 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 The wedding-picture of us. Contenments filled when friends around...*ok...*
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:14 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Still at Breeks, with Kak Fizah & Kak Jo! Wore the same colour clothes with Fizah that day. Haha camner blh sama ni...Wise women, think alike. To Kak Fizah, congratulations! U deserved the promotion. May Allah be with you...*Alhamdulillah*
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:05 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
 Lunch at Breeks. Picture of my food ['duh!] and the sweet little girl is Shafiqah, Kak Fizah's daughter. Right after the Children's day party we headed to T.M. God knows how disturbed I was at that time. Was telling myself to keep cool no matter what happens. Jimah called me in the morning. I wanted to talk to her abt it but not able to. I can't brought it up. I was lost. Left few more days and I can't bearly accept it. God, pls help...
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:01 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Lot to share with the silent world but *haiz* Ok here's some... The SmS When I saw the sender's name I really do not wish to read. But I read it. Ya Allah... It was short and detailed. Got nothing to say. I was at home and could'nt escape. Teary eyed and excruciating heartpangs. Unbearable. Plans and promises...nevermind... But I believe, God knows I can take this. I called Naz..."Jimah tadi ******* msg aku!!!" How I wish I can run at that time. Did'nt reply to that msg. Spare me strenght, anyone? The Month of October for both of us I'm very busy lately...err I mean I'm keeping myself busy... yeah always busy lah. Visit Sue at home. She's so kurus now. We had our dinner. Then look at our old pics with Nizam, Rina and other friends including Razif! I still remember the time when u were with Razif. -he asked me how to tackle a difficult gal like u. -Rin & me had to come up with lot of plans until we run out of ideas. -And at last u accepted him after 6 mths of courtship. Punyalah susah! -Yr first date with him, aku jadi lampost sekejap sbb takut mak kau nampak!!! -Razif make a small gathering after yr first day of work with DBS. Remember we sabo u? Telur+susu+tepung+gula+air Hahaha really man... -u were so scared to break the news to yr mum that razif's family gonna come to propose u... -yr engagement day was the happiest day in our lives. then u said "eh klw tak jadi kawin camner ek? rugi jer tunang" and eventually it came true. Sweetness in yr life beginning to turn sour. That was the saddest part of our live. Now he's married. -U were like 'half mad' for the whole day. -burning photographs. -then u showed me yr tix/visa to New Zealand. I knew u'd do that...but Y? To Razif, may god bless u. To Sue, sorry did'nt send U off. Thanks for calling the other day now I really know how U felt... The Graduation Concert The Theme- Land of make believe...*Huh?* Alhamdulillah...everythg went well inspite of some small prob occured in between. Tomorrow going to be the actual day for the concert at Kallang Theater. Another problem, what to wear? Went back to Bedok PCF today. Had a good time there. Went for a drink with Mom Z then went to airport with Yeo- she blanja me at Swensons-belated b'day treat!!! Thanks Yeo... *winks* Wanna thank Jimah for lending me her ears and sharing views...however the sudden thingy happened make me more worried! But ALHAMDULILLAH as it seems that its going to be ok...Jimah must remember the Do's & Don'ts ya!!! K i'll end here...Good night... *:)* ~the-recuperating-me~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 9:30 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Let's talk this over It's not like we're dead Was it something I did? Was it something you said? Don't leave me hangin' In a city so dead Held up so high On such a breakable thread You were all the things I thought I knew And I thought we could be CHORUS You were everything, everything that I wanted We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away All this time you were pretending So much for my happy ending So much for my happy ending You've got your dumb friends I know what they say They tell you I'm difficult But so are they But they don't know me Do they even know you? All the things you hide from me All the shit that you do You were all the things I thought I knew And I thought we could be It's nice to know that you were there Thanks for acting like you cared And making me feel like I was the only one It's nice to know we had it all Thanks for watching as I fall And letting me know we were done --- The wedding...was fun!!!! --- Haha thats all I can say for now..really worned out...Nites...err..i'm still thkg abt the function over the other side...broke down 3 times during the day. Hard time man!aaaargh enuff is enuff. ~the-hanging-and-fallen-me~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 11:35 PM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Naz, had a great time today but a lil' tired though coz of work... how i wish now we could proceed what we've plan last time..'airport'lah 'midnite movies'lah apalah...ahaha but really had great time. Thanks. K bsk kena kerja keras ni...heheh Good Nite. ~the-unfocused-unlively-me~
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 1:30 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
Gone Somethings just won't happen... *sobs* It was a memorable journey. Gaining less losing more that is. If u ask me, if there's regret throughout this journey, I would say no...sounds not like me but its true. I mean Y regret?? The closer it came, I made more denials but admitted it when drifted. Everythg was an unsureness to me. So, what can u call this? or What kind of person I am? Ouch...Don't tell me, I don't wanna know. I did'nt even know where I stand coz I was lost. It was just like a lighted splint, almost died out but rekindled and eventually burnt after sometimes. Yes, it's burning me. So painful & hurting. Sleepless nights, unstable emotions was all it cost me. However the truth is, I'm kinda contented when 'the presence' stayed in my life though not for long. It's alrite...I'm fine...going to be fine... will be fine! We'll end here ya... No doubts, love always, Shaidah...God Bless.
Source: The echo of Shaidah Nafisah was heard at 1:10 AM, through the circulation of the breeze, however, part of it has to be deep freeze. ~Reports from Ministry Of Seamplicity.
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